Life threw me a giant curve however, when on April 16th my daddy, unexpectedly, passed away in his sleep. My focus, emotions and world changed once again.
Three weeks later we're doing ok and adjusting to life without my daddy being here. We know he's in heaven. We know we'll see him again. We know he's no longer in pain and can see. In fact, he's the first one of us to be greeted by my Kyle as he entered heaven's gates.
So, anyways, as part of the adjusting and it being the day before Mother's Day here's why I'm writing about "ugly words":
.... My Mom is an amazing woman. Her faith is strong and her resolve to adjust to life as a widow is just as strong. Widow - that word has taken on a whole different sound to me. I hate saying it now. It's not a nice word to say when speaking of my mom. It means she's alone without my dad.
.... Miss Maribel is a little girl who is an orphan. She doesn't have a mommy to give flowers to tomorrow. Orphan - I have begun to really not like that word. It means more than not having parents. It means no cuddles or tickles or kisses. No mommy to read a bedtime story to her. It means she is alone without a mommy.
Both of these ugly words make me sad.
And yet there's not much I can do about it.... or is there?
Honestly, I'm trying to figure that out.
So, for now, I'm thinking the only things I can do
are pray and help in small ways with great love.
{so glad I picked that quote to be part of this blog}
OK - so that is like the third post in a row that I've referenced that quote. Silly me. I promise I won't do it again.
{at least not any time soon}
Mom - I love you bunches! You are not alone.... you've got me.
I'm praying for you every day.
Maribel - I love you sweetie! You are not alone.... Jesus is by your side.
I'm praying that by next Mother's Day you'll have a mommy to give
flowers to.
